Its a shame really

I have always credited myself as being a fairly decent writer. Especially when I just let things flow when I have a lot on my mind. Lately though I let those thoughts just marinate in my head instead of getting it out on some kind of "paper". I started this blog, many moons ago in hopes of having an outlet to write whats on my mind and true to form.. I have failed again to keep up with it. Its a little disappointing to me how I let "things" get in the way. I have just have face the fact that I suck at prioritizing my life.. Now lets be honest. Blogging while fun is probably where it should be, bottom of the list. But when I check in and read what I write.. I think, man I really should do this more often. So here I sit, kids screaming in the background while I try to write something clever..

So really and truly I am going to try and try hard to keep an updated journal of some sort. So while I am thinking about it.. I want to talk a little about friends. I have had some significant things happen in regards to friends lately which is good. My best friend from high school finally found me on Facebook. We were always "close" by each other and I am still amazed that we never ran into each other but I am thrilled to be in touch with her again. We have so much to catch up on.. so much and we were so close back in the day. I do miss those types of relationships. Sometimes I think I have nothing like now... but you know maybe I do. Not in the sense of sharing every last detail of my life, but friends that I know I can laugh with, have a good time with and basically see eye to eye with. Its great to have no drama friendships with these girls.

Then there's those friends with conditions, you know the ones that will only be friends with you when it suits them or they want something only you can provide... I have a few of those and that's ok but the hard pill to swallow is when you thought someone who was a good friend is actually a friend with conditions. I recently discovered that about a few people I know. And while disappointing to know that's the type of people they are I have decided its ok because I know who's true to me, who I am true to and I am not going to clutter my brain worrying about the rest.

So, I am off to update my other poorly managed blog stampintildawn@blogspot.com Its supposed to showcase my art. I have lots of projects since my last post.. but guess what, haven't shared them here. I do suck at blogging. Lets see if I can change that.

Happy Birthday Mom!

Really today seemed like any other day.. and as the day comes to a close I reflect on how much time has changed everything. You would of been 61 today. I often wonder what you would of been like. I also wonder what my life would be like if you hadn't left your earthly bounds. Its odd really, how people were right when they said time would heal. I do feel a since of healing. I don't cry as much as I used to. I can talk about you most of the time without breaking down. But in a way I feel bad that there is healing. Almost as if I dont love you anymore. Though I know that's not true. This year will be 7 years since you passed on and its hard to believe its already been that long.

Mom, you know I love you.. we have had our share of obstacles and I have prayed on being able to forgive you for the mistakes you made. I know wasn't a perfect child and as a mother now I realize that being the "perfect" mother is impossible. I hope that you are truly happy now.. stress free. We know now how much weighed on your mind and I have a feeling it was only the surface. You tried so hard to make family important. I appreciate that and childhood is some of my best memories. I only hope that I can do the same for my children.

I love you always

Happy Birthday, Happy Mother's day

The Battle in my mind

A battle is being waged in my life.. there is just so much fun to be had and there just doesn't seem to be enough time to do it all. Its a daily debate between.. household duties, scrapping, and now with the weather finally warming up being outside! I love the outdoors.. I love to scrapbook.. I dont like household duties but I do like a clean house so it has to rank up there. I look at other people with the same dilemmas and wonder how they manage to fit it all in. Its not just those things either.. its hanging with friends, game night with the family, a good movie a good book.. I could spend days just doing the things I love to do.

I often think about eliminating something and I have done some purging in my life of obligations and of stuff but I just don't think I have purged enough. I would like to think of myself and a spontaneous type.. but maybe I need a structured schedule. A schedule would allow me to make time for it all. Its exhausting just thinking about it.

In a few days I will have plenty of time to think about it.. we are hittin the road. Doing a little camping (Yet another thing I love to do) and maybe I will find time to reflect and figure out the chaos that is my life.

Happy Trails

Pretty sure I suck at Life

I get a little busy and what happens... things fall by the way side. I either don't know how to manage my time well or I don't know how to say NO. I think its a little of both. I have been taking stock of all the things I do and deciding on what to let go and what I can keep. I did quit one of my part time jobs. Work was definitely taking up a lot of my time. And after June I will no longer be on the PTA board at school. Not that THAT tied up alot of time it just one less commitment I need to keep. Now I am faced with the prospect of giving up my long time love in CTMH. I love the products and I would scrap and create 24/7 if I could but I cant. My business has definitely suffered at the hands of "regular" income but I am not sure I could completely let it go. I figure the next few weeks without the second job I might have more time at home to work on my CTMH stuff and even keep up with other things, such as scrapping and bloggin. But time will tell for sure. Until next time

My Blogging stinks

Ok I admit it.. I am so not with the blogging program its sad. I always have good intentions.. but I just dont follow through. Which makes me think that I need to take a look at myself and my "good intentions" Looking in I know I try very hard to be a lot of things to a lot of people.. only to fail at most of it.

So this year is the year to really take a hard look at my commitments and trim the fat so to speak. I have to admit to myself that I cant be all things to all people and that I have to learn to say NO. Yes.. NO.. NO NO.. ok enough of that.

So a few things that I am going to put down on "paper" so that hopefully it will be committed to my mind.

Number 1. This HAS to be the last year I am on a diet.. I am NOT on a diet anymore but a lifestyle change. Its pretty sad to look back at my High School Memory book to see that "in 10 years- I would be fit and healthy" ok so its more like 20 plus years later but I am no where close to that. So I joined a TKD class at the rec center, plus I am doing a Shred workout at home every day. My daughter is doing it with me so at least now I am committed to sticking
with it.

Number 2. Practicing what I teach.. Yep, I tell people how important it is to record their family histories and memories in scrapbooks..and well, its been easily 4 or more years since I have actually scrapbooked in my own.. officially that is. I have done a page or two for display and such but no quality scrapping. So I will be attending every free crop and a few paid crops I can to accomplish this.. I have a long list of albums I want to work on that I will now work on.. First one being my grandmas heritage album. I started it about oh 6 years or so ago and never finished and now she has passed on so my plan to record her voice, her memories.. are now gone with her. What an incredible opportunity I missed out on because I had "better things to do"

Number 3. Limit my commitments.. I commit to to many things, PTA, Jobies, CTMH stuff among other things. I am finding lately that I am always running around. I am really a homebody at heart and its hard to be that when I always have to be somewhere.

Number 4. (should probably first) Kingdom first. My relationship with God is sketchy at best. I go through phases and I really need to commit to putting my Lord first in everything. I bet I would be amazed at how much that would change my life.

So there you have it.. Big goals but ones that need to be done. Hopefully I will blog more on my progress.. Not sure if anyone is reading it but hey I like to write.. so I will continue.. even if it is for myself

Seriously.. yes its been way too long

Its been an incredibly long time since my last post.. but I have to say things have just been crazy busy for me the last few months. Back in September I had this job kind of "fall" into my lap. I had posted a profile on narms.com Basically hoping to find a little something part time that I could do a few hours a week. I wasn't actively looking but after several months I got a call from Spar Marketing and was hired right there. Yea my merchandising and marketing background put right back work. My job entails being a rep for Sony Home Entertainment, checking on DVD displays, outs etc. Basically their eyes on retailers in the area. I was so good with doing it, I was brought in as a rep with Icon eyewear, Baush and Lomb and Phillips Norelco. My little 5 hour a week job turned into a about 15 hours a week.. Still not bad for part time.. but hey the extra money is great and keeps me busy. Not long after I picked up that job I was hired by Information Resources doing date collection. This is more of a top secret type job but the pay is excellent.. 24.00 an hour plus travel and mileage expenses. Of course the holidays I am a lot busier with all these companies doing holiday promotions so I expect things to slow down in the new year, and then my scrapbook business will pick up. Perfect!

So one of my many New Years Resolutions is to get back to doing the 365 project. I started off with a bang last summer but kind of fizzled.. now that I have a phone that takes semi great pictures, I am hoping it will be easier to keep up with my photo a day.. and hopefully a great scrapbook when its all said and done.

So that's the update for now.. Looking forward to a great Christmas and a stellar new year (and decade) Can you believe its another decade too?? wow!
Until next time

Sellin' our "baby"

So we finally found the perfect "newer" used travel trailer. We are so excited to be moving up from our little 21 footer. Sunday we brought our old baby home to take all of our stuff out of it and give her the once over and suddenly all the memories came flooding back of all of our adventures in this trailer. Its amazing to me how we get attachments to material things. I know the day someone comes to drive it a way I will be sad.. but then I look forward to making memories in our new trailer.

Which brings me to my "gripe." Trying to sell a "high" ticket item is kind of a pain. We listed our Trailer on Craigslist figuring we would get the biggest response from that and boy to the weirdo's come out of the wood work... First of all you get those "low ballers" the ones that call and offer you a 1/3 rd of what you are asking... I think "are you kidding me??" I am not that desperate yet.. Not sure if I would be. Then you have those that guilt you with some sob story about someone who needs help.. and maybe there is someone that does need help but at least offer me a decent price instead of only a 1/4 of what I am asking for.

I will have faith that someone will come forward that will love and appreciate our trailer as much as we did.